Here We Go Agian.

Tomorrow at 2:30 I have an appointment with the doctor. This is the one where I have to convince the new doctor that has never seen me that I am in fact not crazy, and I do need to go to an RE. I'm hopeful that I wont need to explain what PCOS is, and that I get taken seriously. But, I'm scared that the opposite of that will happen, or worse yet I get a doc that thinks he is super man and can fix my PCOS on his own... which we all know they aren't capable of. I'm scared of being told no, mostly. I want a good referral, not one like I had gotten at the beginning of this journey, where they sent me to an OB, because well that must be close to the same thing right?... WRONG... Ps... that OB thought PCOS treatment consisted of a uterine biopsy. Yeah... JERK... also his exam table faced an open first story window, on a busy street... needless to say I did not go back to him ever again.

Today I had lunch with my mother in law. I thought maybe she had something she wanted to say to me, but she didn't. She just wanted to have lunch. My relationship with her is really weird. I think mostly its because she doesn't understand what Hub and I have gone through, and sadly she sort of blamed me, also not really ever being around much probably hasn't helped. We talked about PCOS and what I was most likely going to have to do in order to have a baby. I think she understands better now and hopefully she will stop being so cold. She is from the group of women that believes babies just happen, and once your pregnant you always stay that way. So she has a little trouble believing that someone actually needs help getting and staying pregnant. I think she sorta thought fertility drugs were for people who wanted to have allot of kids at once then maybe get on tv. It's really kind of sad that people think that. Hopefully now though she gets that I'm not crazy, and understands a little more, about what we have gone though.

I'm off to dig up my records from the RE and make copies for the new doc. Wish me luck.