Tuesday, December 15, 2009

T minus 1 day and 17 hours.

GAH! Nervous. I have no idea why I'm so worked up over this RE appointment. I go in on Thursday at 9:30. I'm scared all of the sudden that the RE will say IVF. and we just can't afford that now, and honestly, I'm not sure we want to do that. 20000+ and no guarantees scares the crap out of me. Also I'm scared that all my hard work losing this weight wont matter. The dark side of my brain keeps saying that the doc wont treat me because I am over weight. I am also scared that it wont work. ( I weigh less now then I did the last time but still...)

I think that it's just compounding up on me because I am stressed out about not being able to find a job. I've applied to every ad I have seen. I might just go out and get a retail job. I just can't stand being stuck at the house all day. It reminds me of the children that I don't have, and should be taking care of.


Hope C said...

Good luck with your RE visit. Fingers crossed that it goes smoothly and you get a great plan you can be excited about.

Tally said...

Over here from LFCA.

Good luck tomorrow! I went through the same nervousness when I went to check out a new RE/get a second opinion. It went swimmingly.

Fingers crossed that you have the same experience as I. -Tally