Wednesday, July 20, 2011


Jack will be one on August 8th. So taking first birthday pictures is pretty much my life right now. I have one more idea, but I have to wait till I have help. Taking pictures of busy toddlers requires a baby wrangler. :)

Things that have kept me from blogging.

SO. I signed up for ICOMLEAWE this month in hopes it would make me post SOMETHING on here. it almost worked. Almost. I have thought to myself a thousand times this would make a good post. Like the time we took Jack to the zoo, or we went to Chicago for the weekend, or that girl who was behind me in traffic plucking her eyebrows. But for some reason I just haven't posted. I want to be better. I do. I'll try...

Thursday, July 7, 2011

Trying Agian.

Some time ago, I don't quite remember when, Hub and I decided that we would try to have a second baby around the time Jack turns one. That time somehow arrived very quickly. My baby will be one next month. So we jumped into trying to have a baby. We're not really doing anything super intensive. We're just making an effort to do certain things on days when I'm supposed to ovulate if I were a normal person, and not someone whose ovaries are in a permanent state of revolt.

I didn't think it would be so scary, and hard to think about, and gah don't want to walk down that path, this time around. But it is. I don't want to get crazy wrapped up in it this time. I want to live in the moment. I want to not obsess. BUT, I've found myself doing things to make sure certain things might be slightly more effective.

I need to focus on what I can control that help, and let the rest of it all slide.

Things I can control

-- What goes into my body. (diet)
-- Exercise.
-- Weight loss
-- Stress Level.

When I got pregnant with Jack I had lost about 40 pounds. I was exercising. I was eating good food. I was not stressed. I was not obsessing over ovulation and procreation and all the what if's that come along with them. I was relaxed, and not expecting anything. I was pleasantly surprised. I wasn't peeing on sticks every other day. That is my plan for now. Maybe just maybe lightening will strike twice again, and I'll be pleasantly surprised again.