Some time ago, I don't quite remember when, Hub and I decided that we would try to have a second baby around the time Jack turns one. That time somehow arrived very quickly. My baby will be one next month. So we jumped into trying to have a baby. We're not really doing anything super intensive. We're just making an effort to do certain things on days when I'm supposed to ovulate if I were a normal person, and not someone whose ovaries are in a permanent state of revolt.
I didn't think it would be so scary, and hard to think about, and gah don't want to walk down that path, this time around. But it is. I don't want to get crazy wrapped up in it this time. I want to live in the moment. I want to not obsess. BUT, I've found myself doing things to make sure certain things might be slightly more effective.
I need to focus on what I can control that help, and let the rest of it all slide.
Things I can control
-- What goes into my body. (diet)
-- Weight loss
-- Stress Level.
When I got pregnant with Jack I had lost about 40 pounds. I was exercising. I was eating good food. I was not stressed. I was not obsessing over ovulation and procreation and all the what if's that come along with them. I was relaxed, and not expecting anything. I was pleasantly surprised. I wasn't peeing on sticks every other day. That is my plan for now. Maybe just maybe lightening will strike twice again, and I'll be pleasantly surprised again.