Thursday, July 7, 2011

Trying Agian.

Some time ago, I don't quite remember when, Hub and I decided that we would try to have a second baby around the time Jack turns one. That time somehow arrived very quickly. My baby will be one next month. So we jumped into trying to have a baby. We're not really doing anything super intensive. We're just making an effort to do certain things on days when I'm supposed to ovulate if I were a normal person, and not someone whose ovaries are in a permanent state of revolt.

I didn't think it would be so scary, and hard to think about, and gah don't want to walk down that path, this time around. But it is. I don't want to get crazy wrapped up in it this time. I want to live in the moment. I want to not obsess. BUT, I've found myself doing things to make sure certain things might be slightly more effective.

I need to focus on what I can control that help, and let the rest of it all slide.

Things I can control

-- What goes into my body. (diet)
-- Exercise.
-- Weight loss
-- Stress Level.

When I got pregnant with Jack I had lost about 40 pounds. I was exercising. I was eating good food. I was not stressed. I was not obsessing over ovulation and procreation and all the what if's that come along with them. I was relaxed, and not expecting anything. I was pleasantly surprised. I wasn't peeing on sticks every other day. That is my plan for now. Maybe just maybe lightening will strike twice again, and I'll be pleasantly surprised again.


Anonymous said...

We're getting close to TTC again, too and it's scary just to think about going down that path again. I've got my fingers crossed for you that lightening strikes twice and you don't have as hard a time this go.

Ordinary Girl said...

I just made an appointment with our RE to talk about trying for #2 and it is so scary. It sounds like you have such a good outlook on it though. I hope it works and you're pregnant again before you know it. And I love the birthday photos! It goes by so fast doesn't it?

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