Thank you!

Thank you all for leaving such kind words. I was really worried about hurting you guys. I know how hard it is to see that someone made it while your out there struggling.

My Beta results came back, they are 284. That's good. My Re's office sees anything over 100 as being pregnant. I have to go back on Saturday to repeat the test and make sure my numbers are going up as they should. The doctor called in a prescription for progesterone suppositories for me, and prenatal vitamins. They also told me to get some baby aspirin. So I will go get that in about an hour, so the pharmacy has a chance to fill the prescriptions.

Thanks so much for your support. This has been a very long road, and all of you will get to this bend one day too. Hang in there.

So...

Remember that last post I wrote about my uterus not cooperating with me. Turns out it was working overtime. I'm pregnant! I really thought I would never be able to write those words. I can't believe that I saw two pink lines. I didn't think I was at all, I was just taking a test to confirm for myself that it would be safe to start my cycle with meds. When the dollar store test came up with a second line I had to go out and buy more expensive tests. After taking 4 I'm starting to let myself believe it, a little. I'll feel better when I see what the Beta is.

I can't believe that my body did this on its own without meds, like the ones that are in my fridge right now. I go to the RE tomorrow for blood work, and I hope an Ultra sound, because I want to see whats going on and since I'm on cycle day 40 I don't know how far along I am. I want so badly for this to be better then last time.

I don't really feel pregnant at all. I'm just really sleepy, and my breasts hurt. But then again that usually happens before AF.

Cramps... Cramps Everywhere and Not a Drop of Pink.

For about a week now I have had really strong cramps. The kind that double you over in pain. The kind I usually get before my cycle starts. But It hasn't. It just wont start. My uterus is a stubborn fickle bitch that knows there is thousands of dollars of insurance paid for fertility drugs in my fridge, and it is doing everything in its power to make me too crazy to use them.

Christmas Q&A

1. Wrapping paper or gift bags? Mostly paper. But if there are pretty bags on clearance after Christmas you bet I'm going to buy those too. I love me some after Christmas clearance shopping and always buy all my wrapping stuff then.

2. Real tree or Artificial? Mine is fake. I love it though because I never have to mess with tangled up lights.

3. When do you put up the tree? Usually in the days after Thanksgiving. But I've put it up earlier because family was coming at Thanksgiving and we were celebrating then.

4. When do you take the tree down? After Christmas when I get tired of looking at it.

5. Do you like eggnog? *GAG!* No way! It's the grossest substance in the universe. Hub likes it though.

6. Favorite gift received as a child? My doll. Her name is Pam and she can talk and read when you put a cartridge in her back. I still her in the closet and hope to have a little girl so I can give it to her some day.

7. Hardest person to buy for? Hub's Grandma. She needs and wants nothing. This year we got her a photo frame with pictures of us in it... Real original I know.

8. Easiest person to buy for? My Mom, we usually want the same things... lol

9. Do you have a nativity scene? Nope, but we have a village that lights up and there are people that move.

10. Mail or email Christmas cards? We usually mail them but I didn't do it this year.

11. Worst Christmas ever? The ones when Hub was deployed sucked.

12. Favorite Christmas Movie(s)? A Christmas Story... HAHA... " You'll Shoot Your Eye Out!" Also The Land of Misfit Toys. But the old one, not the computery one.

13. When do you start shopping for Christmas? Depends, this year I got a late start, and only finished today.

14. Have you ever recycled a Christmas present? Yes... but only to people who don't know the original giver, and because I know that they would like it much better then I do.

15.Favorite thing to eat at Christmas? Ham... This year we are having Turkey at my MIL's, but I can see Ham for New Years. :)

17. Favorite Christmas song? I like the funny ones like, The 12 Pains of Christmas. Also the country ones, Dolly Parton's Hard Candy Christmas is good too. I had like 3 cd with all of my faves on them but I lost them in the move. :(

18. Travel at Christmas or stay home? Usually, this year we live about 3 miles from the in laws and we've done enough traveling so we are staying put. Next year though will be my Mom's turn. Either at her place or somewhere warm.

19. Can you name all of Santa's reindeer? Yup.


20. What is the weather usually like where you live on Christmas? I'm not sure, this is our first Christmas in MI, but tonight its freezing, and there is some dirty snow left from the last storm

21. Open the presents Christmas Eve or morning? Christmas morning... this year though we are having Christmas Eve at my Mil's and I believe there will be gifts then... so both.

22. Most annoying thing about this time of the year? Cranky people who check they're brains at the door before they go out. GAH! its obnoxious.

23. Favorite ornament theme or color? I don't have one favorite. Hub and I get one from all the places we travel too. Those are my favorites, because it reminds me of all the fun we had and the amazing places we've got to visit. This year we added New Orleans and Disney.

24. Favorite for Christmas dinner? Ham. didn't I answer that already? Eh...

25. What do you want for Christmas this year? I want the Gonal F to work. But other then that, I would like some fun things for our house.


That's how we do Christmas here in my neck of the woods. Now, I want to know what you do in your abode. Leave me a comment if you're participating so that I can cruise by your blog and see your holiday doings. I'm looking forward to it! Til then, my friends...

Welcome IComLeavWe'ers!

Hi there!

If your here for the first time welcome!

I am currently waiting to start an injects cycle. This will be the first medicated cycle Hub and I have done since 2006.

I'm 24 Hub is 25. I have PCOS. No kids but we have two dogs that think they are children.

I procrastinate a little too much. Right now I still need to go Christmas Shopping for Hub.

I am still trying to fight the battle with my yo-yo weight. Currently, its up, but hopefully soon it will be down again.

I have a nifty intro here .

Heart attack averted...

So the nurse was able to fix the mistake and I got it all straightened out with the mail order pharmacy the RE likes to work with.

Today, my meds were delivered. I felt like it was Christmas. I opened my big ole box of fertility fun like it was the first gift on Christmas morning. I got 3 pens of Gonal F and 2 shots of Ovidril. They are sitting in my fridge and I'm waiting for AF. It feels as if I have been waiting for it not to come all of my life and now I just want it to hurry up and get here. If it isn't here by the end of the month the RE will give me something to make it start. I can't wait. ... That is weird, because I'm excited about giving myself needles. Odd... Just odd... :)

I'm so happy to be starting soon I don't even mind that something is wrong with the key pad on my oven, and what ever it is keeps beeping...

So A Girl and A Sailor Walk Into a Fertility Clinic.

Everything went well. That is until I got home last night.

The Re was really good! He answered all of our questions, and he is more than willing to give us Gonal F and let us do the rest our selves... But someone didn't tell the nurse that... *Sigh* So she called to get my prior authorization from the insurance co. and they asked her if we were doing IUI or IVF, and she said yes... OOPS! so the Insurance said NOPE you can't take that med. *SIGH* the nurse was calling the insurance co back to fix it. I hope they approve it this time. *SIGH*
Other then that I am good to go when AF starts I get to go get poked and prodded and then I get to start shooting up. In a few minutes I am going to call Tricare to see if my meds were approved. Why does Insurance only make this whole process 1000 times more difficult?!

T minus 1 day and 17 hours.

GAH! Nervous. I have no idea why I'm so worked up over this RE appointment. I go in on Thursday at 9:30. I'm scared all of the sudden that the RE will say IVF. and we just can't afford that now, and honestly, I'm not sure we want to do that. 20000+ and no guarantees scares the crap out of me. Also I'm scared that all my hard work losing this weight wont matter. The dark side of my brain keeps saying that the doc wont treat me because I am over weight. I am also scared that it wont work. ( I weigh less now then I did the last time but still...)

I think that it's just compounding up on me because I am stressed out about not being able to find a job. I've applied to every ad I have seen. I might just go out and get a retail job. I just can't stand being stuck at the house all day. It reminds me of the children that I don't have, and should be taking care of.

EEEP!

I got an appointment. :) Not tomorrow Thursday... but the Thursday after that. EEEEPPP! So happy. This is happening fast now, weird how that happens. Hurry up and wait for the never ending roller coaster ride. Step right up. :)I guess it might just be my turn after all, and I was thinking my chance at a turn was gone. Eeep! eeeep! eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeppppp! :)

Relief!

My referral got accepted. :) I feel like the fifty ton elephant got off my chest finally!! Tonight I will see what would be a good day for a first appointment for Hub to go. He really wants to be there and I REALLY want him there. His schedule is never the same so hopefully he will have a good day next week and the RE will have an appointment. *WHOOOO!* I've spent the last hour or so breathing out a giant sigh of relief. All is good now.