The Beach is Closed.

Red Tide...

I don't know why I'm surprised by this, but I am. I know that being late does not equal pregnant in my case. I also don't know why month after month when Red Tide doesn't roll in when my fertility friend app tells me to I get antsy. FYI... It never happens when its supposed to. I have PCOS. That's the way life is. When it finally does roll around I get sad and depressed. I hate that I hope every month when I know there is no way. But I do, and now I'm sad, and disappointed.

Checking In.

I'm back down to 199. YAY! The one is back. That said, We both fell off the P90X band wagon. I might just start up again after the holidays. It is very restrictive diet wise. Hub and I were at each other's throats because we were so hungry! That said it did clean up our eating habits a lot from the crappy way we had been eating the last few months. I think that is why I lost the five pounds. The work out are strange because they start off intense and get easier as the week goes on.

Until after Christmas I am going to just do basic work out stuff, like run on the treadmill and sit ups and push ups, that sort of thing.

I just finished cleaning up the house, this place is sparkling clean. We are having Thanksgiving here this year. Tomorrow I'm doing a lot of baking and prepping anything that I can ahead of time. I can tell that the mother in law wasn't too thrilled when Hub told her we wanted to do Thanksgiving. She REALLY can't cook! ... like at all... yeah...

I got some stuff for cosmos and some spiced rum, just in case things get a little heated. Basically around the 3rd or so time she says, "Your doing it that way?!" yeah... hurrah for me.... :) at least there is booze!!! lol

Happy Thanksgiving!!!

A Starting Place.

I'm in the market for an RE now! First I have to find a primary care doc, insurance makes me get a referral. Hopefully I can find one that takes me seriously. I think I've found a good RE. I found him online. I've never done that before, so hopefully that works out too. I also really hope I can get a referral to that doctor's office. I'm trying so hard to be optimistic about trying again, but at the same time I have a bad case of what if's. I'm so scared that it wont work, but at the same time I really hope it does. I don't want to get my hopes up, but it might be about 3 years too late for that.

I just keep thinking that next year, next Christmas, I might be pregnant, or I might even finally have the child I've hoped for, for so long now. Even if its sort of a long shot, that thought makes me smile.

I guess I'm off to see the wizard... again.

P90-OUCH!

The title just about says it all. I'm on day two, and muscles I didn't even know I had hurt!

The program has three levels, and I am doing the Lean version, which is mainly to slim down and tone. In other words, I wont look like a monster when I'm done. : ) Hub is doing the Classic version, and he's pretty sore too. To say its intense is an understatement. I couldn't finish my work out Day 1, and I had to stop the tape with about ten minutes left on the Core Synergistics DVD. Today was cardio day and I'm proud to say that I made it through, and don't tell anyone but it was sorta fun too... well parts of it were.

The diet that goes with this is pretty tough too. The first phase is low carb, with the exception of the protein bars, and drinks. They have more carbs than I thought they would. It does get easier as you go (they add in more food types later). But like most things its REALLY hard to start off.


On Sunday we weighted in and I was at 203 again. It sucked, but I sort of thought I would be up there because I haven't been eating well and I haven't been exercising lately. I know the weight will come off again, and soon given the new work out I'm doing. It still stings though to see that "2" again.

I'm hanging in there though.

Yeah... Crappy Blogger... thats me...

GAH Busy! I hate busy. We are almost done unpacking the whole house. The only room we have left is the garage.

Here are some after pictures... I'm trying to find the before pictures. It might take a few days. We've organised everything so well that I can't find them.















This is it... The Money Pit... the after shots.

When we singed the lease for this house it was full of pee smelling carpet, dirt, dog hair, yellow walls from years of cigarette smoke. Okay you get it... It was gross. We tore out the carpet, found hardwood floors in most of the house, we sanded them, refinished them ( that's another long story ). We cleaned then painted ( alot of Kills paint... like ALOT... in case you don't know it fixes the ugly in one coat and it kills smells... it basically rocks.) We put down laminate tile in the rooms that didn't have hardwood. Hub put in a new double wall oven that we got off c*ra*igs**l*ist for FRRRRRRRRRREEEEEEE!!!! It works like new, I really don't think it was used much it was completely spotless inside. Hub also put in a new cook top, the appliances didn't really work too well. We cleaned up the yard the day before yesterday. Its finally coming together and I'm tired just typing that all out.

You must be wondering why we did this all to a rental. Well, we got the owner to sign a 3 year lease at an obscenely low rent. So we didn't mind fixing it up too much. Plus Hub and I really like projects.

In other news, Hub and I ordered P90X. Yup that's right. We ordered it. It's here and we are starting it on Monday. This weekend we are getting rid of all of the junk in the house, and do all of the other before stuff. ie: take photos and what not. Then we start. I'll be posting about P90X in my weekly weigh in post. Those will start back up on Monday.

Sorry I abandoned this blog for so long, moving and all the work on the house sucked up all of my time.

So....

I've been a CRAPPY blogger lately. With a capitol C. SORRY!!! I've been so busy with the move and getting the money pit fixed up that I haven't had time to breath let alone blog.

As a consolation prize I'm going to up load before and after shots of the money pit, and tell you some horrifying home improvement stories, in the next couple of days.

I'm Still Alive.

This is just a quick post to let everyone know that I'm still alive. We found a house. Hub, sister in law, and I have spent every waking moment at the house renovating it for the past week. There will be a long photo filled post comming down the line when we are finished. This house was filled with ugly and nasty. The people who had it before me destroyed it. Today we spent all day sanding the hard wood floors we found while takeing out the nasty old carpets. Tommrow we will start painting.

Tag I'm it.

Minta over at Life Family and the Pursuit of Sanity tagged me. I also secretly love to fill out these surveys. So here goes.

Rules
1. You Can Only Use One Word!
2. Pass this along to 6 of your favorite bloggers
3. Alert them that you have given them this award!
4. Have Fun!



The Fun Part

1. Where is your cell phone? Bed
2. Your hair? Washed!
3. Your mother? Semi-Crazy.... ( I get it from her....)
4. Your father? ASSHAT!!!!
5. Your favorite food? Steak
6. Your dream last night? None.
7. Your favorite drink? Pepsi
8. Your dream/goal? Mom - Also- Heathly... (Sue me I broke the rule! :P)
9. What room are you in? Hotel.
10. Your hobby? Reading
11. Your fear? non-mom
12. Where do you want to be in 6 years? Settled
13. Where were you last night? Hotel
14. Something that you aren’t? Infected
15. Muffins? Da DA DAAAAA... ( it's a Phsych thing)
16. Wish list item? Home
17. Where did you grow up? brook

18. Last thing you did? toe-ointment
19. What are you wearing? clothes
20. Your TV? Stored
21. Your pets? Far-away :(
22. Friends? family
23. Your life? chaos
24. Your mood? sleepy
25. Missing someone? YUP
26. Vehicle? cracked!
27. Something you’re not wearing? Socks
28. Your favorite store? Target
29. Your favorite color? Teal
30. When was the last time you laughed? For real? New Orleans
31. Last time you cried? Monday
32. Your best friend? Mom/Hub
33. One place that I go to over and over? Beach ( damn fish! yes I'm bitter! )
34. One person who emails me regularly? Izzy
35. Favorite place to eat? Home.





Now for the tagging. ... I dont know if I have 6 so if your reading this its all you!

Toegate 2009

WARNING: The following post is laden with nasty descriptions of a medical nature. If you squeamish, turn back now. Once your strapped in to the ride its like a train wreck that you cant look away from. Please, turn back now if you don't want to hear about my night in the ER... Really I don't blame you... go now run!



So the two of you that are still reading this, HI! ( Also Hi MOM.... I know your one of the 2... ; ) )

It. Got. Worse. Much worse, yesterday. By the time my husband got home at around 5 it looked as though my foot had been inflated by a bicycle pump, and my toe was covered in very swollen blister like things. Also and this is the part that made my husband force me to the ER, there was a really nasty black spot right where my toe joins with the foot.

So we hobbled to the car at about 5pm, and stopped off for dinner, because we both thought that was going to be spending some time in the hospital given the above described scariness. We got to the ER and it was a full up mad house in there. I guess Wednesday night is the cool time to go to the ER. We I checked in with the charge nurse, who rolled her eyes at me when I told her I'd been there on Monday, and gotten worse. I could almost hear the voice in her head say " Yeah, surrrrrrrre you have..." and we sat. Two hours till I got in to the trauma bay to get looked at. That nurse was the same one that gave me my hurt foot shoe that I conveniently "lost" as soon as I was coherent enough to take it off on Monday. She was all ... uuuuuuuummmm that's gross... glad you came in. Then we got to sit for two more hours, lucky us!

I got a room, and eventually the Doc came in and I told him my something bit me while I was in the ocean story. He poked my foot, and told me that he thought it was a bad allergic reaction to fish venom of some kind. He popped a couple of the blisters, and cultured them. I had xrays to rule out bone infection, and blood work, and they gave me Benadril, and Zantax. And then they sent me home, with new prescriptions, that seem to be working. It was almost 1:30 am when we got to leave the ER.

My foot is better, and less itchy, and burny, less swelling, and less blister thingies. I already feel better.

This is the one with the frustration, and the itching!

So, you might have noticed this is not a watch me shrink post. To be honest I have no idea where I am at with weight loss this week because I am unable to go to the gym. A couple of weeks ago I got pinched by a crab in the ocean. It looked like it had healed completely, but it didn't and I spent yesterday in the ER.

My foot had swollen to three times its size and my toe is covered in blisters. Its nasty. I have Cellulitis. YAY! ... NOT!!! I have spent the last two days in bed with my foot propped up on a pillow. I can't work out or really do anything. I'm hoping that the antibiotics and anti-inflammatory work fast because I am already bored, and this is awful.

Maybe next week I can get back into the gym.