Watch me Shrink

As you might have noticed, there was no weigh in last week. I was on vacation. When I got back I was weighing in at 208. *GASP!*

This week I'm back to weighing in at 204. PHEW!!! I think the best thing I did to help me this week was using an app on my new i phone called lose it! Its like a food diary on steroids, and I will keep using it. I even got Hub doing it. I like it because it lets me see what I am doing right and not so right.

This week I ran one time. : ( I didn't run because I've had this weird pain in my stomach everytime I moved it got worse. Thankfully its not as bad as it was eailier in the week, I couldn't walk or bend or reach with out wanting it scream.

My goals for this week are:

Run more! Like more than once and make it to week 3 of my couch to 10k.

On the first I am going to start the 30 day shred to hopefully break this plateau I've been on for a while now.

I want to keep using lose it, and falling in below my calorie limit for the day.

I will make better food choices this week.

Road trips and Broken Hubs.

We got back from a random and really fun road trip yesterday. We had planned to hang out around the area and maybe go to the water park, but hub sprained his ankle last Monday, at work. I spent the better part of two days running around to various doctors with him to make sure it wasn't broken. Only Navy Docs would send you home for the night "Walk it off Sailor... you'll be okay..." ( no one was there to read his Xrays at 3pm... so yeah lesson learned ... don't hurt one's self after noon... cause no docs will be there to fix it...) After we discovered Hub is only mildly broken we didn't know what to do with our time off. ( We had planned this escape like a month ago...) So we got online and found a drive in theater like 2 hours away. Hub booked a room at Ye ole Inn of Holiday... and we drove.

We got there all ready to see Up and Land of the Lost (even though we saw that when it came out... see it ... its funny. ) I pulled up to the door and let Cripple ( what I'm affectionately calling Hub for the time being) out. The desk lady ran over to the door and started spraying air freshener like there was no tomorrow. Like the hole can! OMFG! ALOT OF IT! I parked the truck and walked in and began choking. Because believe it or not the 6 gallons of air freshener and the 20 open paint cans on the floor couldn't possibly cover the smell. I can only describe the smell as a rather large family of very dead vermin ( IE Possums... just guessing... but hey we were in the middle of Nowheresville NC) The smell took over the whole place... even our room... the dirtiest "suite" you could imagine... so we turned back around told the air freshener lady thanks but we wont be staying here and left. And you know what Internet? She actually asked us why we wouldn't stay there. I swear to god!

So Back on the road again we went and ended up in Durham NC. Where we drove past Duke uni. While stopped next to it I turned to Hub and said, " I smeel farter already" ... yup classic... I put my foot in my mouth that fast. After getting lost because Lola ( our GPS... yes I name inanimate objects... so?) apparently had no idea where on earth we were, we made it to the hotel, and I am proud to say this one was Possum free! YAY!

We went out and had pizza, good pizza and we decided to continue our trip and go down to Myrtle Beach SC. Hud hopped on his phone and made us reservations in a nice room in the same chain of hotels, just like that... like it was nothing. And because we had only packed for one night away we went to a Super Target. yeah... I had no idea! I want one! BAD! If you haven't guessed I <3 me some target.

We went back to the hotel and swam in the pool. That was so much fun.

We got up and I had what was not the most diet friendly breakfast, S&V chips... *drool...* and off we went again...

Myrtle Beach was so much fun although we took it easy and didn't do to much. We hung out at the pool till our room was ready, and I got some color. So now I'm white... not transparent. The room was nice and it had a big fluffy bed that ate you alive. We went out to the beach for some lunch and beer for Hub. Then we relaxed and got cleaned up and Hub took me to Margaretaville for dinner. WHOO FUN! Okay so I let loose and got a little drunk... but hell why not. It was vacation. We walked around the little shopping area for a little while then we went back to the beach for some cheap souvenirs and ice cream.

It was nice getting away from it all.

Meanwhile, we finally gave in and bought 2 i... phones still waiting for those to be delivered, and I want my toy now... * pout*... oh well. I'm off to make dinner, we're having Jerk Chicken.

Watch Me Shrink

So its Monday and surprise! ( or not...) I stayed the same.

I know why I stayed the same this week. There was 0 exercise... I know BAD! but I had a super crazy week. In fact I am squeezing in a quick post, because I have six frillion things to do today. I Just got back from dropping the truck off at the shop because it has a death rattle, and my house is under this mound of dirty dishes and laundry and dust bunnies. *sigh*

I'm half way to my goal! I realized that yesterday... I'm half way there. I can see the light at the end of this tunnel, and I'm going to charge toward it. With this half way to my goal point, has come some small successes. Hub and I went to the water park, and my old swim suits didn't fit anymore. So I ventured out to the friendly neighborhood T**ge* store and I began trying on swim suits. I must have tried on 50. Not kidding. Every single one they had in my size in the store. I bought a bikini, not the tank top kind either! I'm pretty proud of that. Now I don’t have six pack abs ( probably never will) and I'm not a stick I know this, but I’m not scaring children and I look pretty damn good in it. I don’t even care about my scar any more. ( I have a huge scar that looks like someone tried to saw me in half across my stomach, from having my spleen and gallbladder out when I was 5)

Also at the water park I climbed the 6 or 8 flights of stairs up to the one slide we got to go on before the thunderstorm started ( we have rain tickets that we might use this weekend) I wasn't even the least bit winded. Not at all. The two girls behind me were about my old size possibly a bit smaller, and they couldn't even talk when they got up to the platform. I know that would have been me last summer. I'm very proud of myself. I can also feel myself coming back out of my shell. I’m so much happier and I feel like I'm living again.

All three of my auctions sold last night! YAY! After these people pay me I'll be half way to buying an I*p*o*e... Yup I decided on something fun. I've worked hard and I've earned it. I've been buying clothes as I go and that is what seems to be working. If I waited until I was done I would be roaming the streets naked, because seriously, I might have 1 thing that fits me from before. That is only because it was WAY too small when I bought it. In the next few weeks I will be cleaning out my house and I might sell some more stuff on there. We will be moving at the end of the summer. Not sure where yet. It will most likely be the Detroit area to recruit. But Hub just got scoped out for an awesome shore billet doing electronicy work. Its what he really wants to do when he gets out, and the best part is we will be stationed in CT again, nearish my mom if he gets that, and he really wants it! Keep your fingers crossed!

Oh well... on with it...

This week I'm going to suck it up and get on to Week 3. I think I've put it off for so long because I'm a little scared to run for that long and I'm a little scared that I wont make it. But its time I’ve drug my feet for long enough.

Here’s a break down of week 3:

Day 1: Brisk five-minute warm-up walk, then do two repetitions of the following:
•Jog 200 yards (or 90 seconds)
•Walk 200 yards (or 90 seconds)
•Jog 400 yards (or 3 minutes)
•Walk 400 yards (or three minutes)

Day 2: Brisk five-minute warm-up walk, then do two repetitions of the following:
•Jog 200 yards (or 90 seconds)
•Walk 200 yards (or 90 seconds)
•Jog 400 yards (or 3 minutes)
•Walk 400 yards (or three minutes)

Day 3:Brisk five-minute warm-up walk, then do two repetitions of the following:
•Jog 200 yards (or 90 seconds)
•Walk 200 yards (or 90 seconds)
•Jog 400 yards (or 3 minutes)
•Walk 400 yards (or three minutes)

I will also be doing strength training. I've come this far and nothing is going to stop me now!


My goal is still 10 lbs down by the 30th of this month!
Well I'm off to scrape the crud out of my life. : )

I shrank.

Yesterday I cleaned out my closet. I knew I have lost some weight, okay, more than some. I didn't realize that I had so many things that I could no longer wear. Here look at all this....





Under all that somewhere is a king size bed. Nuts.... Just Nuts...


I could not believe all of that. So, instead of keeping and storing all of those clothes I am going to sell them on e*bay. If anyone is a size 16 18 ish go take a look, there are some good clothes. I have a shopping habit. I'll edit this post to add the links after I list them all, some time in the next few days.

Listing # 1

Listing # 2

It hadn't really hit me until I saw that mountain of clothes on the bed, I was standing there in my size 14 pants that I am starting to shrink out of, and I realized that I'm not that person any more. I had the big box sitting there and I was going to put all of that away. I don't have room for it, and I don't plan on using it again, so I'm getting rid of it. Maybe someone else needs it, and I can use that money to buy new clothes or something fun. I'm excited to make it to my goal now. I will reach my goal. :) If your stuck cleaning out the whole closet and getting rid of all of the things you can't wear any more is a great motivator.

Watch Me Shrink.

This day might just be the best day of my life... so far...

First off, because I know your dieing to know, I lost 1 pound this week. I think that is a little shocking because Hub has dragged my butt out for icecream about 4 times... *sigh* But I got him on board. So this week will be better. He is trying to lose a few pounds too. He's been talking about it since he got home from his last deployment. ( Not that he really has many pounds to lose... like 10 maybe...)

I dont think I am going to manage to lose my 10 lbs by the 15th. : ( So I am going to push that goal date back to the 30th, and I'm going to work my ass off to do it.

Running : Since I bumpped my speed up last week, week 2 has been kicking my butt. So I'm going to stick to week 2, at least till Wenesday. Then depending on how I feel, I might move up to week 3.


Now for the good part. I found out that my favorite show ever is comming back on the air, TONIGHT! Yay!!! GILMORE GIRLS! I'm so excited, and the DVR is primed and ready!

The DVR is primed beacuse Hub got us Tides tickets for tonight. The Tides are the local minor leage baseball team. I haven't been to a game in a very long time, and I am really excited! Okay, so it's not the Red Sox, but I'm still pretty excited.

Well I have like 20 things I have to do before I get to go to the game tonight, so I gotta run.

My Best Friend.

My Mom has been my best friend for my whole life. When I think of every happy moment or bad day, she's the person I call and the one waiting in the wings.

She is also the strongest person I know. There have been so many things that my (now very small) family have had to make it through. She is the only reason we came out on the other side. That stress, of the millions of things that no one should ever have to live through, has sat on her shoulders, and festered inside of her, and it become sickness. Cancer, and heart problems, and some odd mystery mass in her lung.

I would love it if for once the people who created those problems could experience just a little of that pain, but really evil doesn't feel pain, nor does it die. That is unfortunate for the rest of us.

Last night for the first time in my life, I heard her scared. I heard her concider giving up. She can't give up, because it is letting them win. She has spent her whole life fightting them, and she can't let them win now. I wont let her.

I will never understand how the universe just seems to align for the people who break things, and cause pain. But everything just falls apart, for the good people. I hope that I can be half the person she is.

Hope is a Strange Strange Thing.

After all this time you would really think that I would not have any hope left. Strangely I do. There is a slight chance I might have O'ed on my own this week. This is really strange because I didn't even O while on crazy drugs. I'm pretty sure that I have only O'ed twice in my whole life. We might have even managed to catch it, on the off chance that I really did. I haven't even told Hub that I might have. I don't want to get his hope up too. It's bad enough when just one of us are disappointed. I do not, in any way, expect that I will see those illusive lines. But the hope is sort of nice while it lasts.

It's really strange finding comfort in hope that you know is just going to be squashed. I've really tried not to fall into all the old habits I had while in IF treatment. You know like, wandering through the baby department while your out shopping, and looking on E*b*y and a certain list for anything baby related. Sadly have looked, I can't help it.

I think this is what addicts feel like. They do things that they know are bad for them, but they can't help them selves. I know that in two weeks all of the tiny pink and blue onesies I hunted down in Internet land will sting... kinda alot. But; I just can't help it. I can't help but fuel that precious molecule of hope. For a small moment in time if nothing else I get that maybe. Maybe is so much better then No. So I'll settle in with the maybe, at least until its gone.

Watch me Shrink.

I stayed the same. Which I am thankful for. I had the head cold from hell this week and I couldn't run at all, because breathing was very difficult. I'm starting to feel better now, and will run today.

Goals :

I am sticking to loosing 10 pounds by June 15.

I am going to stick to the same week of the couch to 10K, and its probly going to kick my butt since I didn't do much running last week. I'm going to aim at keeping my speed up, and I might try to work in more runs, then just the three required.