I keep running...

Last week I started back down the path marked weight loss again. I've got about 35 pounds to lose again. Oddly 20 of it isn't baby weight, its post baby weight. I'm a little embarrassed to admit that I have gained back extra weight after having Jack. But I did. I got really weak from being on bed rest for over two months. I got discouraged, whenever I tried to work out. I went from running 4 miles to getting hopelessly winded doing the laundry. So I gave up. And I gave up again, and again. But this time I can't let myself give up. I can't do it. Last week I ran a mile for the first time since before I was pregnant. It felt amazing. (Afterwards.)
I lost a pound last week. I was hoping for more but a pound is okay. This week I've set my mind to lose more than that.

I'm following this to get back into running.

10 Week training schedule.

Memeish.

1. What did you do in 2011 that you’d never done before?

I taught a real live human being to walk and talk.

2. Did you keep your New Year’s resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
Last year it was to lose all the pounds. ... so no...

This year will be lose all the pounds and maybe run a 5k.

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?

Not really too close. But half of Hub's family spawned this year... they are all boys, every single one of them.

4.Did anyone close to you die?

My dog Hemi. He got hit by some asshole car, in front of our house.

5. What would you like to have in 2012 that you lacked in 2011?

More time with my family, and more of the skinny.

6. What countries did you visit?

Canada... passing though.

7. What date from 2011 will remain etched upon your memory, and why:

Date? Memory? What are these things of which you speak?

8/8/11 ... Jack's 1st birthday.

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?

Teaching the mini human to walk and talk and be a cool person.

9. What was your biggest failure?

Not losing all the pounds, also adding more pounds. ( not many but a few )

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?

Nope. We made it though this year in one piece. :)

11. What was the best thing you bought?

Kitchen Aide. :) It's from the 70's kinda little ugly, but its mine all mine.

12. Whose behavior merited celebration?

ummmmm... I'll get back to you...

13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?

My Sil. She is odd... and makes me sad.

14. Where did most of your money go?

See Mini Human.

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?

First steps and first words.

16. What song will always remind you of 2011?

I;m sexy and I know it... except that's probably not at all what its called. That song is the mind worm of the year.

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:

i. happier or sadder? Mostly happier.

ii. thinner or fatter? about the same... a few pounds extra.

iii. richer or poorer? same ole shiz.

Aunt Becky's replacment questions:

i) more or less like Justin Beaver - less... I'm not a gay 17 year old boy... also someone please tell him to go away.

ii) more or less likely to decide inanimate objects looked like boobs - Probably more. its fun.

iii) more or less likely to watch Glee – Less... that show has never been on my radar.

18. What do you wish you’d done more of?

Being out side before the weather went to shit.

19. What do you wish you’d done less of?

Stress. Also, time wasting on the internet.

20. How will you be spending Christmas?

I was at home with my momma!

21. There was no #21. I don’t know why there was no 21.

Invented # 21.

Something I don't ever want to forget about this year.

Jack's little voice squealing HI!! like he hasn't seen you in 10 years!... its full of the awesome.

22. Did you fall in love in 2011?

Just more in love with the ones I already loved. :)

23. How many one-night stands?

... 0... I are a old married lady...


24. What was your favorite TV program?

Reruns of Jerico. That show should have never been cancled.
Also Psych.


25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn’t hate this time last year?

Nope just the same people. :P

26. What was the best book you read?

The Help. Full of greatness.

27. What was your greatest musical discovery?

... red solo cup... tee heet.

28. What did you want and get?

Kitchen Aide

30. What was your favorite film of this year?

We bought a Zoo was good.

31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?

We went to Joe's crab shack. Im 26

32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?

2 more pink lines.

33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2011?

Gee I hope those are clean.

34. What kept you sane?

I haven't had any of the sane for a long long time.

35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?

Alex O'Loughlin.

36. What political issue stirred you the most?

umm... all of it... the compleet lack of anything constructive done makes me want to vomit.

37. Who did you miss?

My momma.

38. Who was the best new person you met?

I didn't really meet anyone new. Sad but true.

39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2011:

Dont be afraide to make an ass out of your self if it makes your kiddo happy.

40. Quote a song lyric that sums up your year
If I couldn't laugh I just would go insane, If we couldn't laugh we just would go insane, If we weren't all crazy we would go insane.


I'm tagging anyone who reads this, if you do it leave a comment so I know you did it. :) Happy New Year!

Blogger Help.

Does anyone know why blogger wont let me comment on people's posts? this has been happening for a while and I dont know why!!!

If you havent heard from me thats why... its not cause I dont love yall any more. :)

Shrinking again... for real this time.

So almost 16 months have gone by since I had Jack, and I look like I'm at least 6 months pregnant. I've gained and lost about 15 pounds over and over since I had Jack. Now I ready to lose it for good.

Today I started the 30 day shread. I think it might take me more than
30 days to get through. I was only able to do about half of it before my lazyness overtook me and I gave it up. I will try agian tommrow.

Right now Jack is napping, when he wakes up we're going out to get some fruits and salad stuff. I'm going to try to recreate my eating plan from when I lost the weight before I got pregnant.

I'm hopeing to get healthy enough to get pregnant with number 2 before Hub goes back to a boat next fall. That lil monkey up there has made me want a house full of babies. He makes life so awesome. I'll give a Jack update soon.

So...

I haven't posted in forever, so I thought I'd start out nice and easy.

A Christmas list.
  

Pictures from last Christmas.

1. Egg Nog or Hot Chocolate? hot chocolate ... egg nog is so gross!

2. Does Santa wrap presents or just sit them under the tree?   Santa has elves to do that...

3. Colored lights on tree/house or white? We have white... but I like colored better.

4. Do you hang mistletoe? I have in the past.

5. When do you put your decorations up? Honestly not sure if we will this year. :( We are going to my momma's for christmas, and it seems like alot of work when we arent even going to be here to enjoy it... maybe I will put up a few just for Jack though.

6. What is your favorite holiday dish?  Stuffing! :) yeah I'm weird.... my mom makes prime rib some years, and I still like the crappy bagged stuffing the best. lol

7. Favorite Holiday memory as a child?  Being with my family. It never really mattered much what I got or didn't get, it was just good to be with the people I loved and that loved me.

8. When and how did you learn the truth about Santa? When someone sent me into the basement to get something from the freezer, and all of my gifts were on the work bench.

9. Do you open a gift on Christmas Eve? No... but we are going to let Jack open his Christmas jammies the night before.

10. How do you decorate your Christmas tree? We had alot of hand me down orniments from my MILs tree. But they were so old and falling apart that we got some new ones last year at the end of the season.

11. Snow! Love it or Dread it? Please god can I have no snow... That is the dirtiest 4 letter word of all! GAH! I hate snow!!!

12. Can you ice skate? NO... I'm not what you would call graceful.

13. Do you remember your favorite gift? One year I got a doll that read stories. Pamela, I still have that doll.

14. What’s the most important thing about the Holidays for you? Being together with my loved ones.

15. What is your favorite Holiday Dessert? Pumpkin pie, or chocolate pie. :)

16. What is your favorite holiday tradition? Cooking with my Mom.

17. What tops your tree? We have a bow... a lame one... Note to self get a new bow... Our tree is too tall for a star.

18. Which do you prefer giving or receiving? I like to give gifts. I think I'm pretty good at picking stuff out. I'm pretty excited to pick out stuff for Jack this year. It should be an awesome Christmas!

19. Candy Canes: Yuck or Yum? Sure... they are okay... but there is usually so much other stuff around they get forgotten about.

20. Favorite Christmas show? The Island of Misfit Toys. :) or How the Grinch Stole Christmas... the old one.

21. Saddest Christmas Song? Christmas Shoes.

22. What is your favorite Christmas song? most years it has be Sailling Home for Christmas by Doug Stone. Hub has been deployed or underway gone 4 out of 7 years.




This is a good one too. Its called Belleau Wood By Garth Brooks.

ONE

Jack will be one on August 8th. So taking first birthday pictures is pretty much my life right now. I have one more idea, but I have to wait till I have help. Taking pictures of busy toddlers requires a baby wrangler. :)

Things that have kept me from blogging.

SO. I signed up for ICOMLEAWE this month in hopes it would make me post SOMETHING on here. it almost worked. Almost. I have thought to myself a thousand times this would make a good post. Like the time we took Jack to the zoo, or we went to Chicago for the weekend, or that girl who was behind me in traffic plucking her eyebrows. But for some reason I just haven't posted. I want to be better. I do. I'll try...

Trying Agian.

Some time ago, I don't quite remember when, Hub and I decided that we would try to have a second baby around the time Jack turns one. That time somehow arrived very quickly. My baby will be one next month. So we jumped into trying to have a baby. We're not really doing anything super intensive. We're just making an effort to do certain things on days when I'm supposed to ovulate if I were a normal person, and not someone whose ovaries are in a permanent state of revolt.

I didn't think it would be so scary, and hard to think about, and gah don't want to walk down that path, this time around. But it is. I don't want to get crazy wrapped up in it this time. I want to live in the moment. I want to not obsess. BUT, I've found myself doing things to make sure certain things might be slightly more effective.

I need to focus on what I can control that help, and let the rest of it all slide.


Things I can control

-- What goes into my body. (diet)
-- Exercise.
-- Weight loss
-- Stress Level.

When I got pregnant with Jack I had lost about 40 pounds. I was exercising. I was eating good food. I was not stressed. I was not obsessing over ovulation and procreation and all the what if's that come along with them. I was relaxed, and not expecting anything. I was pleasantly surprised. I wasn't peeing on sticks every other day. That is my plan for now. Maybe just maybe lightening will strike twice again, and I'll be pleasantly surprised again.

Days 1-3 Quick Trim Cleanse.

Starting weight : 216.8
Weight morning day 4 : 212.2

So... Yeah score. I feel awesome! I'm wearing pants that havent been on my butt since before I was pregnant. :) And they are comphy. :) Today is a good day.

The cleanse isn't that bad. That said, I'm not really folowing the meal plan in the booklet. I'm just eating healthy and reducing my calories. (under 1500)
The hardest part is drinking all the water. Your supposed to drink a gallon everyday, which as it turns out is about what I'm supposed to drink anyway. I just cant seem to do it. I can get about 3/4 of it down. By about 9ish at night I feel like I am floating.


Positives:
I find my self only wanting the correct portion size of food. I feel full faster. I think its all that water.

I have lost weight, clothes fit me better.

Negitives:

Ummmm... You do have to AHEM use the bathroom more often. That said, its really not so bad. I survived Metformin, this is NOTHING like that.

I was expecting other negitive side effects like nausia and jitters, But so far I haven't had any of that. Also haven't had the energy surplus this pill says you may get. ( *pout* could really use that energy. )

So far so good. I'll check back in a few days.

The Wagon.... Falling Off Of.

I have been on the weight loss wagon, and off the weight loss wagon at least ten times in the past month. It’s a sucky self esteem battering situation.

I was in Ta*get tonight picking up a few things and two thin blonde twigs in workout clothes were walking behind me. I heard them start laughing and then one of the twigs said to the other one look at her butt. Yeah awesome. You rock bitch! As if I hadn't had a rough enough time adjusting to my post baby body without your unwarranted input. Suck my droopy jeans twiggy bitch. PS. Eat a steak... and choke on it.

I haven't been blogging about weight loss lately because I seem to be losing and gaining back the same couple of pounds, and two weeks ago we got a new scale, after being without a working one for a while. Our old scale was doing this thing where it would very 5 to 10 pounds every time you stepped on it. So we got a new shiny digital one. I didn't like what it said. So off I fell. I stopped exercising. I was actually starting to enjoy it, but the little voice in my head that kicks me when I'm down said "HA! It's not working." Actually, the scale I was using was broken, but I couldn't let myself believe that. I got into a negative downward spiral of suck.

Well no more. I'm sick of it. I'm sick of being the droopy pants-ed woman in the store, and I'm sick of having nothing that fits. Mostly I'm sick of feeling bad about my body. My amazing body, that just managed to do the one thing I've been trying so hard to get it to do for 5 years. I'm getting my body back. Tonight at Ta*get was the last straw.

I decided to kick things off with a cleanse. I've never done anything like this before. I'm not looking for a miracle with it. I'm just hoping that it cleans the junk out of my system and makes it so I don't want it so badly. If I manage to lose a few pounds in the process bonus, and that'll be just the motivation I need.

I decided on the Quicktrim cleanse, mainly because I can't stomach the thought of drinking some weird concoction or eating only apples, or some other crazy thing for 2 weeks. With the Quicktrim cleanse I get to eat food, and live my life. I have to drink more water, and take the pills (which I debated doing, but in the end I read the ingredients and it didn't have anything dangerous in it.) and exercise, for 14 days. I can do anything for 14 days. After the two weeks is up, my plan is to do the same thing I did to lose the weight the last time. I'm going to cut my calories and not eat processed white carbs, and drink lots of water. I will be tracking my food on my Lose It app to keep me on track. I also will be working out more. My goal to start is 4 days a week, doing the Kempo X video, and 30 minutes on my elliptical. I hope to get that up to 6 days a week, and maintain that. I hope that I can get more fit and maybe even start training to run a half marathon.

I'm starting the cleanse on Saturday, because that is when we get paid and I can buy new groceries, and get the old stuff out of my house. I'm going to start drinking the water in the morning, because it's free and I'm going to need to ease myself into it, as that is alot of water.

My goal weight is 180.

I hope to be at my goal weight by the end of August.

As an added bonus if I am on track for my goal, I should fit in my summer clothes. :)

The stats:

Starting weight:217

Daily calorie intake:1600

Water Intake: 169 oz

Pounds till goal: 37

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