10 Weeks and Counting.

Today my baby is a fetus, according to the baby book. I am so amazed that I made it here.

This week most of my symptoms have been here so long that I hardly notice them anymore. I'm really lucky, because I haven't been very sick at all, mostly just tired. I still have only gotten sick a couple of times, and it is always because I smell something awful, like the garbage can.

The constipation is getting a little better. I have no idea why that is. But I am very thankful for it.

I woke up this morning to Hub holding me and rubbing my belly, that's just starting to poke out. He kisses and talks to my belly. He's so happy. I feel so loved.

I need to start taking belly pictures. I want to have that to look back at later.

On another note, I went to work this morning and was told my services were no longer needed. I don't don't know why, I didn't do anything to deserve being fired, but I was. And you know what... I don't really care. I had decided to stop looking for a job because we found out I am pregnant, and this job called me that morning. We are fortunate enough not to need the money, because hub has a good job. But, I took it thinking it would be something I could do so I wouldn't be bored home alone all day. It was the most boring job I have ever had, and most of the people there were not good people, and were honestly pretty ignorant (the owner included.) Not a good quality in an accountant if you ask me. I was honestly counting the days till tax season was over so I could just be done with the job. So I will be taking care of the house and the dogs and the baby and Hub and me. I couldn't be happier about that. I just hope they don't hire someone else that really needs the job, and fire them 3 weeks later, because I get the impression that is what they do. The other receptionist constantly told me about people they fired, including one they fired for putting the toilet paper on backwards. (no I'm not kidding...) I hope they don't do that to someone who needs the job and has been out of work like a lot of people are here.

Baby S.

The Ultrasound tech assured us that the heart beat was very strong, but I was so floored seeing that perfect little flicker and how much bigger the baby got that I forgot to ask how many beats per minute it was. I am so unbelievably happy its insane. Hub and I had been so worried about this little person that I felt like I couldn't breath. Then magically everything was okay. I go to my primary care doctor on Monday to get a referral to an OBGYN. This weekend I will be checking them all out.

It was all okay

My worrying was for nothing. The baby has a heart beat!!!! Picture to come tonight.

14 hours....

Till I get to know what's going on with the baby. I'm nervous, and excited all at once....

one week

Asking a pregnant person to wait for two weeks to see what is going on in her uterus is insane. Just so you know...

I am in the middle of yet another kind of two week wait. ( Just when I thought I was done with those.) Next Thursday I get to see inside and check up on the baby(s). I can't wait. I've moved right into the nervous worried side of things. I keep worrying that I've lost the baby(s) and I don't even know. I know that is an insane thought, because these days water gives me heartburn, and I almost throw up when I use q tips in the morning, also I cant stay awake past 8 pm to save my life. I just want that reassurance you know? Also I would like to know if squiggly bubble number 2 (@ about 5 o'clock in the photo) is a baby... or not. And if not what is it? I sorta wish that there was a porthole in my belly so I could see in side.

Warning TMI....

My work pants are getting really tight. I mean uncomfortable it sit in all day. I got myself a belly band last week and I might actually have to start using it. I think my pants aren't fitting because I am so constipated. I may just have to call the Dr and ask what I can do to fix it. Ive tried everything that I can think of from more fruit to force feeding myself water. Nothing is working, and it hasn't been for about 2 1/2 weeks. Anyone one know what I should try? Anything work for any of you?

The Picture!

because I have the best Hub in the whole wide world, he called and told them we didn't get a copy of the ultrasound photo. They taped it to the door because they were closing just so we could get it.

Here it is.

The ultrasound

I had my first ultrasound today. They saw one sac with a yolk sac in it and one that was a little smaller and hard to see. So there is a possibility of twins. I will know for sure in two weeks when they repeat the ultrasound. They think I am not as far along as previously thought, that I ovulated about a week later, so there was no heartbeats to see just yet. The doctor said it looked perfectly normal for someone who had ovulated a week or so later then they thought I did... so maybe in two weeks I might have to add a baby to that bubble on my sidebar... eeeeep! I would put up the ultrasound photos but the doctor kept them. I am going to ask for them the next time because I really want them.

On Saturday I had another Beta HCG done, and it came back great! They were expecting it to be somewhere around 1100. It was 1715. I didn't breath till I heard back from the RE's office. I had a fear that it wasn't going to double. But it did and I can't be happier.

On top of the sleepiness Ive been having I got a few new symptoms this week. I wake up about 3 times a night to pee. I don't think I've ever gone this much in my whole life. I also woke up in the middle of the night, the other night STARVING! that's never happened before either. I find I'm actually really hungry every couple of hours, and I'm trying my best to only eat good food. I've had my first bouts of queasiness but so far it hasn't been really bad, and I haven't thrown up. I get light headed sometimes. The smell of coffee or cooking eggs ( my choice of breakfast last week... the eggs... not coffee...) reminds me of rotting flesh and I can't get away form them fast enough.

It really is bazaar to think a tiny human being is growing inside of me. I never thought I'd have this chance. What's even more strange is the love I already have for this baby. I can't wait until it moves, and grows big enough to tell I'm pregnant if you don't know me. For the first time in a long time I am hopeful about the future.

We get to see the baby via ultrasound Thursday morning. I can't wait.

Thank you!

Thank you all for leaving such kind words. I was really worried about hurting you guys. I know how hard it is to see that someone made it while your out there struggling.

My Beta results came back, they are 284. That's good. My Re's office sees anything over 100 as being pregnant. I have to go back on Saturday to repeat the test and make sure my numbers are going up as they should. The doctor called in a prescription for progesterone suppositories for me, and prenatal vitamins. They also told me to get some baby aspirin. So I will go get that in about an hour, so the pharmacy has a chance to fill the prescriptions.

Thanks so much for your support. This has been a very long road, and all of you will get to this bend one day too. Hang in there.

So...

Remember that last post I wrote about my uterus not cooperating with me. Turns out it was working overtime. I'm pregnant! I really thought I would never be able to write those words. I can't believe that I saw two pink lines. I didn't think I was at all, I was just taking a test to confirm for myself that it would be safe to start my cycle with meds. When the dollar store test came up with a second line I had to go out and buy more expensive tests. After taking 4 I'm starting to let myself believe it, a little. I'll feel better when I see what the Beta is.

I can't believe that my body did this on its own without meds, like the ones that are in my fridge right now. I go to the RE tomorrow for blood work, and I hope an Ultra sound, because I want to see whats going on and since I'm on cycle day 40 I don't know how far along I am. I want so badly for this to be better then last time.

I don't really feel pregnant at all. I'm just really sleepy, and my breasts hurt. But then again that usually happens before AF.